WELCOME TO THE UNDERGROUND HOW ARE YOUR BALLS

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6/29/24 finally picked up this again. the neocities tutorials left stuff to be desired, but taking code from w3 makes this way easier. and im actually learning! anyways, trying to use a custom font for the title, but its not working lol

ooh right intros! im cirro, your local weirdo. i like hiking, old tech, furries, mlp, modular synth, ambience, math, polytopology, cooking, etc. whew. im currently in the summer before my second year of college, going as an electrical engineer! (i know)

crippling social anxiety, memory issues, adhd diagnosis yada yada, anyways fun plans for the future here:

i'm deciding on what to put here, but i think this'd be a cool place to compile all my projects from over the years, and have pages for what i like and stuff. should i link to my friend's stuff? ehh might be a security thing. i'll definitely link to my boyfriend's stuff though, he's so good at writing and drawing, i wanna show off his stuff! ...im learning how to write and draw from him haha

i might put some stories i'm working on here, ive got some cool ideas for stuff that'll look real neat in text, some links between pages, hidden text, time travel maybe, itll be cool

i can make dedicated pages for some stuff im really into, like mlp and diagrams of loki time travel and polytopology and fallout equestria and my custom math notations maybe

i can display some of my drawings too maybe! they're really amature but ive got a few im proud of. there's also art by other people i really like and wanna show

hmm, what else... i could... ooh! ive been looking into putting music on websites, maybe i can make like an art gallery but for music! i actually have made a few playlists of my favorite songs, and ordered them to line up pretty well, if i say so myself. and ive got some big ones planned too! eventually... but yea! i can even post progress on those here! maybe that'll finally get me to finish all these projects haha...

welp! that's my braindump for right now! idk who's reading this, or how far in the future you are, but thanks for reading this far! looking forward to seeing how you and i change as the seconds go by!

p.s., this was on featured on the neocities hub today, their messages lately are kinda sad from screaming into the void. i personally like reading their little entries, and i really appreciate you. yea! you. whoever you are. keep going! youve got something cooking. your website is really pretty! reading your thingies actually made me go this far in making my own website. and those of you who arent you, youve probably got things down better than you think! go with your gut, and if your gut is being stupid, go with your head! if both, uhhh go with your heart! (and yknow, the rest of your body)

ohandalsolovewebiswhatstartedthisneocitiesadventuregocheckthemoutonyoutube

p.p.s. okay, i just took a closer look at that person's blog, (they're name is Pixel, apparently). they seem really nice! and they're feeling bad for being weird, and not fitting in with friends, feeling like an extra. its like im lookin in a mirror!

ill cut to the chase and say youll learn eventually to embrace your weirdness. its not easy! im sort of hypocritical cause i havent done that exact thing yet either. but from people ive seen so far that have, and from what ive felt by letting myself slip every so often, its nice! it feels nice to let your identities come together, to not have to hide things from people. and i know itll drive some people away, but the harsh truth ive learned is, people you drive away are either only weirded out temporarily, or they arent worth having as close friends. true friends will come around! and if not, well, youll be happier being yourself, at least.

idk, just some thoughts. im not much of a thinker anyways. but keep your chin up! i know there's not much i can do as some random stranger on the internet, but from one stranger to another, you're not alone! there's people who care about you where you are! the void is big, but its always full of stars!

p.p.p.s. hii HALLOW

6/29/24 im still awake its literally 3:28am anyways apparently free accounts here can't hold audio files noooo oh well. i can still make the playlist on youtube and embed it here. or just embed individual videos here. ooh or embed audio here from some other audio hosting site. yeaaa thatll work.

showed my boyfriend my page, he thinks its cool yayy. maybe he'll make one ooh thatd be cool

6/30/24 finally, ive got more pages!! well, i technically made one new page yesterday but now its proper, with links and stuff! i learned that you can't really link back to your main landing page, cause it doesn't have a name besides just the website link. weird! anyways, finally got enough money to withdraw from an atm, and i got some cheap goodies for me! some cookies, some pecans, a bit of pretty cloth and rim to fix the sides of my backpack (at some point).

i didn't go to the onsen like i planned, but thats okay! ive gotta save money. and i wasnt able to get the mortar and pestle like i wanted, the only store ive found them at is closed on sundays! cowabummer!

on another note, i spent most of today reinserting some unoriginal songs back into the super lesbian horse rpg soundtrack! ill explain a bit more over here.

phew, that was a lot of page editing. i added some images! couldnt organize them the way i wanted though, but they're there! anywas, its already july 1st and i havent eaten dinner yet. or finished one assignment that was due last thursday. ill cook some rice and curry. mmm

7/03/24 finally had a good day with the other students in this program. woo! also, boyfriend's cooking up a truly psychopathic new villain for his book. oh no he's hot! been converting the aacs from SLHRPG OST+ into mp4s so I can upload them to youtube, but fricken youtube turns some of the shorter videos into shorts with no way to turn them off. so that sucks. they'll still be available as normal videos, but i think you'll have to go out of your way to view them like that. maybe seeing it in a playlist would counteract that, idk. never seen a playlist with shorts in it. another thing, i tried getting verified by phone number to start uploading the ost faster than a few a day, but my phone number isn't working?? i hope its because im in japan and not cause my dad just cut a lot of ties with me.

hmm what should i cover next...

ooh! i can make a page explaining conlangs and stuff, like my toki pona conscript and math notations ooooh yea that'll be sick

lemme just clean up my html a bit so i can start making pages easier...

7/04/24 hell yea finally got the css to (mostly) work! fixed the images on the mlp page and made the background ubiquitous. only catch is not the h1 headings aren't center-aligning for some reason. arghhh. oh! i got it to work by changing the name of the css file from style.css to styles.css, and updating the filename in the html file accordingly. idk how that worked but it did. anyways gottarushtogetreadyfortodayokaybye

7/13/24 been a hot minute since i used this place, its felt like forever. but that's fine.

had two calls with my boyfriend, that was real nice. his nerves have been growing in well, and he's gonna be having his name changed soon too! that's great. we also talked about how when he graduated in a year there's a chance he might move out. which'll mean i'll have to move out. but more importantly i might not be able to see him as much. we talked about how itll be okay, and personally i know we'll figure it out. but its always a bummer to be thinking about when a relationship ends like that. especially when i only just now started it with someone as amazing as him. my heart's still healing from my last relationship (i realize now it never hurt because i was too blind to notice i was being stepped on).

been getting a lot of signs towards me being trans lately, what's up with that? with HALLOW sending me a comic on dysphoria that perfectly mimics a comic i drew months before, us drifting to his past relationships and him assuring me he only meshes with trans women if he was already dating one (i wonder who he could be talking about), me finding another comic by punkitt about big mac being transfem.

idk, am i trans? i never really thought about really wanting to be a girl. or anything else really. I think having the hardware would be useful, but purely from a utilitarian few. i do have some deep seated disappointment in myself, like my soul's just worse off than other people around me, but i never associated it with transness. HALLOW says its probably some form of BPD. my mom is telling me i can get therapy for at least ADHD. something's wrong with me, but im not sure exactly what. can't do much while im stranded in japan though.

my jump in confidence has brought to light a lot of things. like, i am irrationally nervous for things in public, be it presentations, working on things in my room (for fear of roommate coming in), or even just walking around in public. that last one might just be because of the pressure in japan towards blending in, but the others, hmm. new era comes new problems i guess. oh, also i learned how to embed music into a webpage. wellll bandcamp originally. i looked up how to do youtube videos just now lol. (havent quite figured out thumbnails or volume yet)

what is playing in brain rn ^ yea the pressure's buildin at the beginning of this new era. it aint gonna be all sunshine and rainbows, the crunch is coming fast.

so yea, lots to think about. also, ive got all this stuff to do with the class. ive accepted i inherently take longer to do things than other people. not just by a fault of my own, but because i am damaged, with some brain thing. eeeyep. oh also i finished reading Fallout Equestria a few days ago

ive paid off the apartment so im finally cleared to move in!! woohoo!! i finally get to live in a space i can be comfortable in again! and with the person i love. im so exciteddddd

hm i guess not worrying about social things as much would be nice. does that kind of peace of mind come with being trans?

isn't it great to be different?
isnt it wonderful to be exactly who you are?
once you learn to start accepting yourself?
you'll become a shining star?

idk

i guess its silly to worry about stuff with my japan roommate seeing as i already have all these mlp figurines laying around. lol.

one of my friend's friends is flirting with me ooooh. HALLOW and i are in an open relationship (which is a breath of fresh air for both of us), so idk. ive been kinda bottled up all summer (in that way and also socially. japan is rough) so maybe coming back and finally being that free will be exactly what i need. but for sure i want to spend as much as my first time back with HALLOW as possible. until he's back on strong feet again. i mean, he is, and he's doing fine, ugh i just want to fuck my boyfriend first okay jeez.

and there goes any chance i let someone i know see this blog.
besides you of course, moonlight

anywayyyyyssss ive been organizing my files recently, the music should be almost ready enough to be uploaded to my phone. oooh this new batch is gonna be sweet. and also ive been looking into lmms to make some music. ive got a list of mashups/song pairings to try out. ooh i still wanna make that extended playlist, i should do that now that. ive been cooking that for months now, and now more than ever since ive got new pony things.

oh, also the pilot of wild manes came out and i watched it today. its weird, its got g5 vibes, but the main character regularly talks directly to the audience. at least its 2d lol

i was gonna say more stuff, but i forgot. ill come back here if i remember. for now, ive got some work to finally look at and maybe do. hopefully.

i think some of why i avoid doing things i know i need to do is because i constantly feel like im in a state of "oh i just spent a lot of energy doing this thing, i deserve a reward". sometimes i really do deserve it and sometimes it feels like its a vessel to avoid things but its hard to tell which is which. another thing to be aware of.

7/15/24 alright lemme share the source of my hyperfixations these past few days

so lately ive been ripping a lot off youtube. yknow, yar har fiddlety dee. stuff like that. i've also gained the epic power to rip not just from youtube but from any video online ever heheheeeee. I'm so powerful. I've been using my powers for good though, I've been going through every source of mlp fan songs i could think of, compiling them into one big playlist.

with that, off to the pony corner we gooooo

okay and other things too

Patricia Taxxon's Ten Skies album cover

patricia taxxon (good doggy) released a new album about a month back, Ten Skies. with it brings to light this old minimalist movie also called Ten Skies, featuring, uh, ten skies. the album is supposed to be supplemental audio for the movie. It's pretty peaceful. and here's my plan.

i was gonna nab the whole video off the internet, mix it with patty's lovely ambience, and then, wait for it, record it onto a vhs tape. yep! i've already got most of the things i need, i have a vcr that can record and playback vhs tapes, ive been gaining mad ripping skillz, and some other third thing!

so the first hurdle, getting it off the internet and onto my hard drive. there's a lot of sources for this film, there's a copy from a vhs already on youtube, complete with video artifacts and everything (i noticed the ambience in the first track syncs with the wavering of the white blue line on the side, maybe patty saw this version first? or based it on this? idk). unfortunately, apparently the original film is lost media or something, and no original copies exist. howeeeverrrr, there is an HD copy online by Artifecture Labs, and it was made by taking all these bad copies and blending them together to cancel out all the artifacts and stuff. pretty smart! and very convinient. however, the downside is that, no download link is available, and the only way to watch it is through an embedded vimeo player on the website.

great. well, no matter, i can see the video right here, and i know its not on my computer, so it must be streaming in from somewhere. if i can just nab those bits and write them down, ive got the high quality video anyways! neat, so, i tried a few things. my first instinct was to dig down into the web page code and isolate the player itself, and hopefully there's a file or link to another webpage hidden somewhere. and technically, there was! i got down to the raw page for the vimeo player itself, just the video. but i got stuck at square one, there was no other way to get it out. welp, time to research! as per suggestions from this thread, i tried streaming it to VLC player (which was convinient cause i already had it) but it didn't work, cause apparently its "not that kind of stream" and "you need to run another stream from another VLC player" or something. bleh. well, finally i tried the other thing the thread mentioned, using wget to grab the bits from the incoming network stream directly. i didn't want to do this one at first, as it involved downloading all of Ubuntu to my computer and running it as a virtual machine, which sounded pretty complicated. but a few downloads later, i had it up and running! apparently my first guess wasn't so far from the correct method, i actually did need to dig into the webpage to get stuff, but i just needed to go deeper, into the network tab, and get the file names for the incoming audio and video parts of the vimeo stream. so, i fired up wget, fed it the two urls, aaaaaand it didn't work. permission denied. hm. well. i guess its true i never asked for permission to do this, but since its purely for myself it should be fine right?

lol. of course i know it actually means that my permissions to access those files through the network had expired. it makes sense, when not actively using the video, the network stops sending data, to save work. so all i needed to do was grab the bits with wget while the video was playing. so i played the movie and went to sleep for the night. probably a strain on my computer but eh, it survived so whatever. oops, spoilers, yea it worked! it wasnt obvious where the downloaded files went, so i had to do some digging through my own files, and once i saw the logs i confirmed that everything went smoothly and i had them! the files came in as weird file types though, but all the data should be there in the right format for mp4. so i copied the files elsewhere (cause read only or whatever) and just changed both to mp4 and yeehaw! exactly what i needed. it was like 4GB lol. onto step two.

editing things together is the step im on right now, and its not as trivial as you may think. you could just slap patty's Ten Skies onto the movie and call it a day, but with all this high-quality raw audio from the movie itself, i wanted to include it somehow. i might make two versions, one with the original audio and another with the edited-in music. but anyways, i'll have to do some balancing to fit the best of both tracks into this. i'll have to do some eqing and probably things for individual parts of each. my plan was to use kdenlive for this, but its audio-balancing options are kinda slim, so im gonna give lmms a try. if that doesn't work, ive got good ol audacity to get this project through.

and that's where i am so far! ive been thinking to add an additional title card, like the artifecture guys did, explaining that this copy is an edited version with patty's album added in. i might also download the video again. i realize now i only downloaded the 1080p version, not the 2K version. also, i might end up uploading the ripped files to youtube just so i can make a download link available for people, if only until that website's own link becomes active. i don't want to like, steal from them or anything, once theirs goes up mine goes right down. i just want to get this film out to as many creative people as soon as possible, so everyone can experience it. im trying to watch/listen to as little of it as possible til i have the project done, so i can watch it on vhs with my boyfriend. hopefully he'll let me entertain him with slowly moving clouds for that long lol. i really hope he likes it.

from what glimpses i did get, i immediately like this movie. its peaceful, and the original audio with it is too (listen closely to the empty parts, there's voices!). it feels like this is an unlock for me finding more out about myself recently. it feels connected to me. not only because it also shares a cloud-related name with me, but also, look at the release date:

November 21, 2004.

this movie was filmed likely while i was being born. these are the skies i was born under.

i suppose that's true for everyone born that day. even more so the folks in austria who actually were under those skies. still, i just think that's neat.

7/20/24 some notes i just found out with uploading things to itunes manually:

also, cleaned up the website files a bit, now my text has padding! oooooohhhhh~

yayy, updated by phone's library. ive still got a bunch of albums i want to buy, but ive gotta get some money first. i guess i could buy them right now, but ive got limited money anyways. im gonna go get some cash, and go eat hmmm burgers maybe?

7/23/24 confronting my strengths, liberators, and joys.

a few days ago i had a talk with HALLOW. about myself. it started with me wondering if i was trans, and telling him about how i generally just didn't like myself. after a long talk i think we both settled on it being me generally not liking me. due to trauma, probably. ive been looking inward at it and i could see it happening real time a little bit, now. for now, while i work on managing these thoughts that permeate my being, im trying to seperate them mentally. i have a box i keep those thoughts in. but to keep them from building up or being forgotten, the box is transparent and sits on a pedestal in my head. not the pedestal, but a pedestal. so i keep it away, but dont forget.

so when i see a thought thats like "aww that sucks, well go figure for someone like me" or stuff like that i put it in the box. for analysis.

i think i said this here before, but ever since ive begun being mindful, my emotions (other than sadness) have been getting stronger. the first to come back was anger. im pissed at my internmates. i don't know what kind of environment they expect from each other, but its completely unknown to me. people talk over each other a lot, but ive noticed they almost always talk over me. there are two glaring examples that come to mind from today:

speedwalking to work with one of the twins, who i ran into on the way. we were having a conversation, and right when we were on the street outside work we saw two other interns coming the other way. they immediately cut me off mid sentence and started talking to the twin, who left our conversation to talk to them. i know they're probably much better friends than i am with any of them, but what the fuck! im still here!!!!

the other thing that comes to mind was an exchange i had with the interns who were working on the GPIB communications with me. first off, the other guy doing documentations reverted all my additions and clarifications to the docs without telling anyone else, because he "couldn't read them". bitch! i mean, like, i get it. it doesn't look exactly the same. but when just yesterday everyone was saying they were fine, and i literally didn't remove anything, it just comes off as petty. i suppose im being petty too, but like, dude! you tried this already and people changed it to the clarified docs! and then you have the audacity to, after reverting the main doc, to tell me that if I "wanted to clarify it so badly" just "make your own copy". like, BITCH, YOU ERASED ALL MY WORK JUST BECAUSE YOU SPECIFICALLY DIDNT FUCKING WANT TO READ IT. I KNOW ITS READABLE BECAUSE THE INSTRUCTIONS AND TEXT IS LITERALLY HIGHLIGHTED AND TABULATED

ugh.

im a strong advocate for proper keeping of documentation and code, especially in group projects. i expressed how important it was, and one of the other interns had the balls to say "well, no one else at this company can code or read python, so there's no need to clean up anything". bruh. who are you to say they will never read the code? this is literally something we are half-baking for an automatic testing procedure. of course they're going to want to edit it later. the whole point of making it cleaner is to make it easier to read. are yall fucking idiots? we're literally taking a class on this topic. you are spending more time refining your fucking emails than refining the (much more important!) code. meanwhile we spent a total of thirty minutes just clarifying what code correlated to what steps because the internal numbering of the code steps starts at 9. jesus christ.

im pissed. ive begun seeing how these people treat me and im fucking livid. how dare they! they think they can get away with it!

breathe. maybe im just being too antagonistic. ive had a few good times with these people. im still civil at work and i still work with them. i just wouldnt consider them friends. notice how ive never called them that. mayyybe acquaintances. but honestly im waiting for the day im back with my boyfriend, with my few real friends and the people who are patient enough to hear what i have to say. i truly dont have anything against the other interns, i barely interact with them actually, that's not true. ive talked to them and hung out with them quite a lot actually. i just talk less than they do to each other. but im sure they're good people. i just don't have anything in common with them, and dont act in the way they are used to, and as a result they have (conciously or subconciously) delegated me as a less worthy person.

so be it. im done trying to fit myself into friend groups that dont want me. im done with losing myself to blend in with people who don't care for me. i know who cares for me. im tired of losing myself. im not playing this game.




god, i cant wait to go home. i need some snuggles.

but yea, removing the self hate thoughts. its gonna take a while, they're pretty deeply baked into my being. im not sure what'll even be left when its done, if its ever done. i know i wont get rid of everything, but with what my beloved told me, i agree. ill be happier if i was happier with myself. with being myself. i guess all that's left to do is chug on through and see what happens.

7/29/24

i lasted a week. i had another talk with hallow. it wasnt even about me originally, and i turned it into one about me. im so selfish. he was tired and i kept him up with my stupid problems. this sucks. why do i hate myself. this whole time i was so concerned with how i would be walking on eggshells for him, i never even considered that he'd be doing the same for me. just because hes afraid to make me unhappy. why am i such a fucking mess, i cant even be bothered to consider how im affecting other people with my shittiness.

he should just leave me while he has the chance.

just leave me alone, just let me rot and fade as a stain on this earth, move on and live a wonderful life confident in yourself, without weights like me holding you back. your benevolence could be better spent on someone who actually deserves it, someone who can use it. im just digging my own hole here. im refusing to fix myself. that's why im still broken. and i know you hate that. i should just go before i make any more of your life miserable.
fucking shitbag. scum of the earth. less than scum, mud beneath your feet. im best left forgotten and rotting. just left in some corner to die. thats the only way to fix it. NO. FUCK. IM NOT SUICIDAL. you hate that. im not suicidal. i dont want to kill myself. it would fix everything wouldnt it. no it wouldnt. people would miss me. my family, my friends would miss me. you would miss me. im not suicidal. is anything im writing even real. normally id be writing this and crying. im not crying. what the fuck is wrong with me? i dont know.

why the fuck am i even beating myself up right now. nothing happened today, nothing bad really happened with the conversation. i was a bit content actually on the way home. why am i so self destructive. what am i doing. why cant i fix myself. i want to. im hurting people while im not fixed. im making the one i love miserable. why cant i fix myself. im such a burdern. i dont even have that much trauma. why am i so beat up. why arent i okay with myself. i try so hard to be. i felt like i had epiphanies before where i realized something or felt somewhat at peace but none of them worked. im still in this state. were they even real. why cant i remember or internalize anything i learn. even if i try. i should know this by now.

im so tired. i know im gonna end this big rant in some kind of positive conclusion, and then im gonna forget about it after a while and return to rock bottom. i always do. i cant fucking escape it. im so tired. im too weak.

i need so stop being so afraid of negative emotions from other people. im too self-concious. i need to start being aware of what my surroundings are/ im not self-concious enough. i need both. what do i do. i dont know what to do. im going to ruin my relationship and ruin myself and ruin school and ruin everything and its all going to be my fault. because im too fucking weak. because i cant pull myself together, and im too much of a coward to accetpt help. and im too much of coward. and when im not, im too much of a wild card. i just close my eyes and forget all risk. thats bad. i dont want to mess up. i dont know what to do. how do i stop forgetting.

i know he doesnt secretly hate me. i know he's patient and kind and wants to help me and isn't looking for a new partner. but should he? he's forcing me to do therapy. i agree. im in the feedback loop of hell. and a larger feedback loop around that. im stuck. i cant ever improve for real. im stuck. im tired. im weak. im so tired. i think ill just go to sleep.

7/30/24

my hate spikes sstarted becoming more frequent when i started putting my self hate in a box. abby said that was bad. i thought i could mitigate it but i cant. note: don't do that again. im looking at old messages and notes i wrote.

8/14/24 been another hot minute since i updated here. let's see....

so i came down from that hate spike and talked to HALLOW and my mom and stuff, and i went through my old notes and stuff. I'm like 60% sure i was abused or something when i was little, and there's a few shreds of evidence that it was DID or something (having an old diary entry where i was under so much stress i consoled myself as if i was two people, and a list of "alternate personalities" from a few years ago) but if not that extreme then BPD for sure. anyways im in a nothing mood rn but lets recap everything

okay i just had a visit from torie to the apartment but lemme lemma explain

visited the top of mt horai/biwako valley on July 28, listened to ten skies. it was nice, i drank in the view

surprise move of plane ticket early by a week, so i left August 1st. walk to Kyoto Station then train to KIX then fly to ICN to LAX to IAH, then drive down to south texas

stayed for a little bit, then moved in with HALLOW, and that's where i am now

i fixed the financial stuff that plagued me all summer, now ive gotta get a job to help pay for the apartment (at least, to help pay)

im glad i went to japan, it wasnt all fun, but i learned a lot about myself.

When the tides swallow shore
Find you can scale the mountain
When you’re overboard, swimming with the fishes
Find you can listen

I’ve been hearing whispers
Destiny is something of
A carousel
Oh lord
I’ve been wading my waking and waiting on my dreams

When you’ve been whispering back
To your fate

Now you know
What it’s like
To mark uncharted waters
And declare
To the world

That you were the one
To settle the score
This art is your own
Think no more of the encore

So farewell
To the cynic’s delight

my thoughts on how the song applies to my time in Japan

brain is failing to work right now, but i saved everything in my head so ill write it down when i recall it. for now, time to play some terraria (ive got a girl character hehe)

9/10/24 was stuck playing terraria for like a month lol, also hallow got pneumonia and school started

anyways look at this cool image

midi card manual from like the 90s

the design of this manual cover is pretty cool. im looking at pc expansion cards right now. i was sorting my wires and stuff earlier. oooh i got a fancy old jewelry box from a reuse store a few weeks ago, and im using it to hold all my electronics. it looks sick.

9/12/24 old internet relics i found (on pony section cause they're mostly ponies)

shoutout to this very well coded old computer fonts website

9/16/24 update for the Ten Skies project: doing the process over again on my desktop instead of my dinky laptop, and apparently you don't need to download all that crap to get wget. there's a standalone version you can run directly from your windows machine, yay! currently trying to download the highest quality version...

my advice seems to be working! of note, is that you have to be quick at getting the audio and video urls from the website once you start playing it. it only takes a few seconds for the permissions to go stale. man, ive got so many processes running on my fricken computer. uninstalling ableton live (it was a free trial), downloading Ten Skies... actually that's about it lol

welp, while im here ill talk about today. i woke up from a weird dream. (oops, looks like i downloaded the 1080p version again. time to redownload lol) i didn't do much til noon, then i wanted to arrange things in my room, like the 3d printer and 2d printer. but the outlet right next to where i was gonna use it was the broken one. i decided to figure out what was wrong. so i figured out which circuit breaker went to my room (bedroom #1) and turned it off. next i unscrewed the offending outlet and a switch that was the nearest connection. after a few hours (and a trip to raising cane's with HALLOW) i found out that the outlet was wired into the adjacent switch, the one that controls my closet light. cool! only caveat is that the times i tried to reset the breaker, when i flipped it back, a bunch of alarms went off! it freaked me out, and after a few hours i got it down to the fire alarms going off, for some reason. after gettings the model number of the fire alarms and gettings nowhere with the manual, i called the landlords.
welp, they were really chill and just told me to turn on the breaker and keep it on for longer. i was afraid to do that before cause i thought id wake people up and/or break something, but with their permission i did it. aaaaand, after a few long seconds, all the alarms turned off! and my room's power was back! yayyyy!!

now, i have a plan of attack for fixing that outlet (and later fixing the broken lightbulb in my ceiling fan). i'm gonna first disconnect all the wires and pigtails to isolate everything, and use my multimeter to verify all the connections are to where i think theyre going. hopefully ive got everything right already. then, i rewire. ive already got the new wiring planned, which should be perfectly safe for the wall. here we go. well, tomorrow we go. woop!

oh, and the download of the 2K Ten Skies is at 53% now. gonna finish this up and go to bed.

to the place i belong